Guarded

I try to guard my heart

Not open up too quicky

And let people in

Be feircly independent

Never ask for help

Always be ok

By myself

Because I've been let down so many times before

I know once I care there is no going back

I care too deeply

I feel too much

I forgive too easily

Once I open up

I overshare

I over worry

I over love

Why do my feelings have to be so intense?

Everything is go big or go home

Why can't I do anything or be anything in moderation?

I go all in because happiness is only real when shared 

Or I say fuck people, the only person you can't leave is yourself so be someone who you can be happy with spending 24/7 with

And it only matters if you are at peace with yourself

How do you find the balance?

To trust in people but not rely on them too much?

To be secure, happy, and independent on your own without building up your walls too much?

Letting your guard down without risking all the strength you built up within yourself?

But we are social creatures and relationships play a huge role in our happiness

I've been on the other side too where others seem to rely on me for happiness too much also