Anxiety

Anxiety sucks 

Almost  all of these are things I have dealt with my whole life

It can be exhausting

Especially when you look fine on the outside but in your head you are going crazy

With constant thoughts and worrying

You try meditation and yoga and they help some

But other times it is impossible to focus

Exercising can calm the effects

But it only last so long

The worse is when it pushes people away

Because you are obsessive about never doing anything wrong or causing harm to anyone

And when you do, you can't stop your brain until you make things right

Because your anxiety is so bad it effects your physical well being

you feel physically ill when you make people mad, conflict and being yelled at will be the death of you

knots in your stomach, lump in your throat, heart sinking and racing, headaches, exhaustion from insomnia, excessive sweating, lightheaded ness and much more flood your system

To cope sometimes you eat too little or eat too much, other times you can even drink too much or sleep too much

You can be desperate to do anything to just get out of your head and make the thoughts stop

You wish you could be anyone but yourself so you don't have to deal with it anymore

But when you criticize yourself 

Or try to push it away 

It just gets worse

Sometimes you just have to accept the feeling and let it flow through you

To survive another day and ease the pain away