Cut off

I've never been the one to be able to cut people off or block

I guess for other people they just lose respect for that person when they go too far and they can't go back

Not me

I have too much compassion and empathy

It is a blessing and a curse

I know nothing is as personal as it seems

How other people treat you is a reflection of how they feel about themselves

 

Why do I have to care so much more than others?

Why does someone being mad at me or not wanting to be friends with me anymore drive me absolutely crazy?

Do I have a fear of an abandonment or attachment issues because my mom died when I was young and I never really had many close friends?

Is it because I never felt like I fit in because of my disability and that made me have low self esteem?

Is it anxiety or my ADHD?

Probably a mix of everything

 

I learned long ago that nothing is promised or guaranteed

We don't own people and they owe us nothing

Love, friendships, connections are about appreciation not ownership.

Relationships work better when you focus on what you can give rather than what you gain

 

 

Sometimes I'm ok with not conforming

To the norms and expectations of society

Being my authentic overly loving self

Because no one is useless who lightens the burden for others to bare

Maybe I was just put on this earth to serve others

And you tend to be happier, at peace and in the present moment when you are helping others

Not focusing on yourself

 

But others times it feels lonely

Sometimes you get burnt out if you are not taking the time to fill your own cup

To be one of few to care so much

And I wish I could be the type to be able to stop caring more easily

Cut people off

Stand up for myself in what I deserve as well as I do for others

You are supposed to love yourself first and be okay on your own

But i feel like there is a limit on how much one person can take on, on their own

You can get sick of always having to be strong and independent

 

We are only human and we need each other, we are social creatures 

We need to be surrounded by positive, supportive people who help us grow  

Because we were made for love, belonging, and connection