One of the parts about ADHD that isn't talked about as much
Is emotional dysregulation
Our highs are higher
Our lowes are lower
It's like a rollercoaster ride that you never can get off of
Triggers can be hard to manage
And it's like how is it possible to go from happy as clam to mad as the hulk
Or if you are a people pleaser ( in recovery ) like me, you learned that negative emotions are not acceptable
It's not ok to express them
So they build up until...
All of sudden it's like a volcano 🌋 eruption
And then you can realize it in an instant and can be back to calm, cool, and collected in no time
It's really weird to experience or explain to those who haven't experienced the same phenomenon
And this emotional dysregulation
Makes it hard to communicate
When you explode
You say too much
You overwhelm the person on the other side
Because you let yourself be overwhelmed for far too long
To be on the receiving end
It makes sense for people to be confused because you didn't let them know how hurt you were by the things they said or did
Or bringing up things again because you didn't feel fully seen or heard/ things didn't get resolved
It makes sense if they retaliate
It makes sense if they retreat
But other times you did speak up, they just didn't listen
They thought they could get away with doing the same thing because you have forgiven them before
I admire those who can sit back and process before communicating
Instead of doing donuts in expressing thoughts
Or a hamster on a hamster wheel
Going around and around... 360 degrees
Because you have so many mixed emotions and can see things from all sides
I also admire those who speak up every time something is bothering them so they don't let it build up until they explode
These are skills I am working on acquiring
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